Wanting to close once and for all the eyes

Warm tea go through my throat
Wool socks warm my feet
Cats are playing in my room
While one of them are still upon the couch
Music come out of a machine

*And I´m sitting here wondering myself
Why I´m here alone
And why I feel so lonely
I can´t help to think that way
I beg you to help me to live again
Or help me to leave myself*

I can´t longer carry this life
With this one I´ve said it a thousand times
I know very soon I´ll touch the bottom
Cause end of my life is drawing near

*Chorus

It hurts me more than you
But I also know it won´t hurt more as my short life
It´s so big the sorrow I´ve inside my heart I sense how it burns
Can´t you really see how I cry each little second
My soul can´t no more, it just want to rest

*Chorus

Don´t talk to me as I were a fool
Please don´t treat me as a stupid
Don´t you realice how you stick my brain with knives?
I recognice I´m not a wise person
But I´m neither stupid and it hurt to hear those words from you

*Chorus

I think I´ll lie me down to rest forever
So I don´t must hear all that harm me
In the deep

*Chorus