So cold inside

I´m sitting on my bed and write with frozen hands
I´m watching the wall where there´s a lot of pictures of mine

Pictures from the past… and damn it!
I was really happy…
What the heck is happen to me right now?
I don´t already have the wants to breath

Looks like all the blood which wanted to live, died…
I don´t wanna do things just to satisfy other eyes
But to be honest I don´t wanna do anything

*I don´t need of your advices
I know well your brilliant ideas
But I can´t help to feel so dead and numb*

Maybe it will be okey in the future, but what if not?
I don´t wanna look back and see
A girl wanting to hung herself up day and night for so long
What if I can´t order my mind?
You´ll ever say you love me as I am but I don´t
I hate hesitate in extremity and fight with so much contradictions

*Chorus

Damn it I was happy and lucky for being it
But now I don´t know what I am
Maybe sad…
And if you don´t say something to make me glad at once
Then please shut up!
I don´t tell you this to hear self-respect advices
I just want you to understand me a little more

*Chorus (x2)