Trying

I throw myself into the music oceans
Trying to forget what you have said
Trying to forget the way to cry
Trying to escape from a nightmare
My face is wet and my pillow as well
I try to stop my crying but my nerves caress the hell

*I remember well how he have smiled yesterday
I remember heared him say “Mom I´m all right!”
I´ve brought him this book cause he´s asked me for
So don´t say I can´t enter to visit him*

Do you know how many times he gave me an embrace?
He said he´s proud of me and I should go on no matter what
He also said “I love you, sorry mother for have forgetting the helm”
He dried my tears away when I told him it already doesn´t matter

*Est

I didn´t realice then that he was saying goodbye
He was just sixteen years old, he was my baby
He´s still alive, so don´t tell me ugly lies and let me pass to watch him
I´ve heared them say he´s gone yesterday at night
I was yesterday with him and he looked fine
My mind don´t want to understand he´s gone away

*Est

Some say I should sue the hospital for haven´t told immediately
But in my mind there´s no place for fights
It´s my son who has been taking from me not something material
I can´t fight for money in name of my son
I can´t even stop to cry because it hurt too much

*Est (x2)