I´m terrified

At the beginning I said please come to me
Shelter me with your arms and body
But time made me think different
So please don´t come close to me

All the dreams get broken
The need of closeness has disappeared
I´m better alone with my own
Please don´t look at me that way
Your stare confuss me and hurt me more
Your mind say poor thing and hurt me even more

I need the closed spaces to survive
Only there I feel completely secure

*Don´t try to change my opinion
If you really want me then leave me alone
I don´t need the nearness of any man
I don´t wanna remember that night
And with your nearness everything come up to me again
I wanna go back home, but the window always open up
And I´m terrified*

You insist and insist to embracing me
You don´t even care about the scares on your arm by my nails
You grabbed me and looking at my eyes you say you´ll take me out of the hole
Though I tear all your velvet skin apart
I was shivering when I heard you say “Darling… if you wanna flee refuggee yourself in me”
I kept insisting in my conviction and thought…

*Chorus

Thanks for having the best, the best friend I met
I´m here singing this song about a part of my life
That fortunately stayed in the past
I learnt to trust completely in someone that wanted to helped me
And this is my reward because I used to think different…

*Chorus

Sometimes I wake up in a nightmare, but I turn in bed
I see the right man on my side and embracing him I fall asleep again
I spent too much time blaming me
I occupy that role too long without realice that I was the victim
Now I recognize it wasn´t my fault, but it took its time
Cause before I felt to be cornered and flee saying…

*Chorus

Now I can say I´m free